WELCOME 2013 !!!!

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One more year comes to an end. The clock has ticked 12 AM and its 31st December, 2012. The last day to fulfill all our commitments we made to complete in 2012.  2012 is gone. The best year of my life has gone. It has left me. It has left me but it has given me an another year- 2013 to live, enjoy, celebrate, rule, develop, improve and rejoice in every moment of it. I almost fell in love with 2010. But, when 2011 started, I had a faith in me that I will give my 100% to this year but I was unsure of what the year will give me back in return of all the efforts I’ll apply to it. But, now I got to learn a lesson that- God helps Those Who Helps Themselves !!!
Today we leave behind another year. Another year full of emotions, happiness, sadness, anger, resentfulness, fear, surprises, love, anxiousness, pain, thrill, and many more. While the year passed might not seem the best of times right now, but there is no use spending the next one thinking about it.
For the next year, I leave you with this:
“Tomorrow is a new day. Hiding from your history only shackles you to it. We can’t undo a single thing we have ever done, but we can make decisions today that push us towards the heading we need.”
                Ending with, I know all of you are partying as its 12 AM now and no one is reading it. But, still, a very Happy New Year to all of you. May 2013 turns out to be the best year for all of us. Let’s see 2013 as the most positive year of our life. I have a little fear in my heart about 2013 as how is it going to be for me in every terms. But, I have faith in God and faith in Universe. I will try to give my best and I hope I’ll get the best in return. HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 to ALL MY READERS OF BLOGS, FACEBOOK FRIENDS AND FOLLOWERS OF TWEETS. MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL. MAY I SERVE ALL OF YOU BETTER THAN LAST YEAR. 2012 will always remain as a good memory to me. Love you 2012. I will miss you just as I missed 2011 ,2010  throughout the year. 🙂 Last few hours to cherish 2012. Enjoy it.

                                                                WELCOME 2013 !!!!

2013 – I have A RESOLUTION !!!!

29th BLOG POST –>>

             So the 2012 – The Best year of my Life has ended and we are in 2013 – A Brand New Year. I wish everyone a Very Very Happy New Year and a Prosperous One. May everyone of you get and gain whatever you have dreamed in all the passed years. I am little confused about how my 2013 will be but I am confident about my effort and dedication which I’ll put in to make it one of the best of all. From a child I became a Teenager and then I entered into my Adult mode of life which consists of struggle, effort and responsibilities. I also had love affairs which made me more matured than what I was. I had many fights and I got many new relations which has made me quite social for everyone in the horizon. There were many hard experiences which made me cry a lot but has made me so stronger that I don’t cry anymore as I know that I can handle all the problems as I have already handled bigger ones in the past.
 
               2013 is here on the floors and everyone would have made a resolution. A resolution is not to make and forget. It is made to fulfill by striving and being heuristic for it throughout the year and the conclusion of it on the last day of the year should be positive. My Resolution for 2013 is to concentrate on my body and health. . I am the only one in my friend circle who not getting food very well. In a day. When I become hungry then I’ve been drinking milk three times in a day but not eting food. I have good height and cheerful face but I have no strength in my body. I want to develop the strength in me. Building the strength doesn’t mean that I want to box my foes and enemies. This strength means that I want to build up the stamina in my body to run, exert pressure, dance and do physical work. I remember when my friends asked me to perform  or to do any work and I was just thinking that kaam to main kar lunga but kitni der tak kar paaunga and I was trying to find the another way to do work with the shortest duration. This is really sad.

               I am 21 years old and I should have so much strength that I can do more work than my father but I can’t. This is shameful. I have decided that I will start tit bit of exercising in my bedroom itself whenever I’ll get the time. It is not necessary to be so strict about the timing and punctuality in the initial phase itself. I will start with 15 minutes of exercising. After 1 month, 1/2 an hour and when I’ll feel comfortable with 1/2 hour of exertion, I’ll do it for 45 minutes daily. I hope that this will help me in building stamina and continuity in my body. I am not going to any gym and training center as I know that it is just a wastage of money for the boy who is not even exercising in the home. Once, I’ll feel that I have dedicated a period of 1 year to my body and physique, I’ll start going to the gym to be trained and be more fit than ever. For now, I don’t need huge biceps and wide chest. I need a body which can at least bear my weight and my pressure. I don’t want to wrestle with anyone or beat someone. I want to handle my body in a germane way.

One you start exercising, a smartness dwells up in your attitude. Your walking style, talking style and living style changes. This helps to build up your personality. An attitude of helping others develop automatically. I hope I’ll be successful in accessing my Resolution and making me a perfect man with all my dreams and goals getting fulfilled and accomplished. Still, 50 to 60 years of life is waiting for me and I am having such a weak body that either I am sick or my head aches or my body pains or I am admitted in the hospital. I will also try to sleep for 5 to 6 hours daily as I sleep for a very short period of time which acts as a sweet poison to my body. It wasn’t effecting formerly but I can feel some sensations of it now.
I hope I will be successful in being regular and responsible towards my Resolution of concentrating on my Body and Health. I will try to maintain consistency. I hope everyone of you is working on your Resolution. By the way What’s your RESOLUTION FOR THIS YEAR? Please tell me.

She is no more:Death for Rape…!!!!

28th BLOG POST –>>

             No one can stop Rape in the city or state or in country. We will have to keep suffering it without fail. Finally, on 29th December, 2012, Delhi rape victim breathe her last. The whole nation mourned for her. It is a hard fact to believe that a victim of rape dies of something that no one has ever imagined for a rape victim. The most that we think is- Girl lost her virginity to someone whom she didn’t want to. Hence, rape cases keeps on happening and we read it in newspaper and turn over the page thinking that it’s just another news. But what happened with this girl has been a pitiful experience for all of us. Today’s youth don’t have time from their Coaching classes and Facebook but they showed responsibility this time by protesting at India Gate and other landmarks all over India. This is one of the rare moments when Indians made Government scared of us else all of us know that this is the era when Government is dominating us.
With the death of this 23 years old girl, what more can we talk about Rape and its consequences? What exactly will parents teach their sons and daughters? People blame parents of rapists but what fault are they committed to? The most that my parents tell me is- Beta, kabhi koi girlfriend mat patana. Kabhi kisi ladki ka peecha mat karna. Kabhi kuch aisa ho toh hamein bata dena hum baat kar lenge ladki k gharwalon se. Because they fear that I might stalk her and after the rejection from any girl, my ego might get hurt and in the anger of that, I might end up doing something as shameful as raping a mother. Now, if even after this, I end up raping a girl because of the so-called out-of-control Lust, what can my parents do in that? Yes, it would be their fault if after that, they come to defend me. They should directly ask court to hang me to death.

              To a girl, what can a parent ask for? To be at home when it’s dark. But how much does day time assures that a girl will not be molested or raped? Go over the stats and you would find most of the cases when a girl is been raped by her boyfriend or by her boyfriend and his friends. Now, even if girls find this genuine and appropriate that they can go to a flat with their boyfriend as they find protection when he holds their hand, how can one protect them? Loving someone is fine. Keep that in your heart. Even if your family is conservative, let your parents know that you have started loving someone with whom you can spend your whole life with through a relative who is open minded or some family friends. Why is it so essential for you to get the guy by proposing him and then roaming with him all around the city? And now, no fucking idiot should tell me that why am I not saying anything to the boy who rapes the girlfriend and why am I only pointing my finger at girl. The reason is- couples keep on getting more physical day by day. They earn no money but they find themselves enough mature to fall into a relationship and then get involved in all these calamities. Later, when girl asks the boy to keep a limit over this relationship, his ego gets hurt and he ends up doing that last thing- Sex without protection.

If, at the very first moment you will stay away from relationship, no such moment will arrive. Then, even if you are somehow in a relationship, if you keep a limit over all these things, you will not get prone to any such forcible incidents. And do share with your parents, let your parents decide if your love is fine or not. Let them keep a proposal to the boy’s parents than you keeping proposal to the boy. Do it how the legacy has been. Follow the footsteps of simple human beings. Keep your life simple. Don’t get into complexities. Every thing in life comes with some risk, chose the options that has the least risk involved. Keeping a Question over the society that why do boys rape us even when we are in short dresses will not give you the answer. First answer the society why are you so passionate about wearing short dresses. First be eligible yourself to question the society.
I am not born as a boy to dominate girl and use my physique to rape them. But some boys have such mentality. They are influenced by some of the characters shown in movies or by their friends’ thinking and approach towards girls. Who will guarantee us safety? Just after the rape of this Delhi girl on the night of 16th December, almost 23 rape cases have been registered in Delhi. Many would have gone unregistered. That means while the big protest was on at India Gate, some guys even then had guts to rape girls. Now, girls should get the answer as to who will have to take their care. They themselves or the police or the boys or the society. It is very shameful that we have to ask our girls to stay at home rather than assuring them safety on roads and at any point of time in 24 hours. I want to bring a change but now the situation has worsened to a situation that whenever a rape would happen, people will ask at what time it happened. If it would be before 8 PM, girl would be given sympathy else she would be blamed. This is where our country stands now.
To the boys who do this, I seriously want something bitter and worst to happen with them. I have read it many a times in many Holy Books that we get punishment for our sins in hell. I just want our court to read all the Holy Books and give the same kind of harsh punishment to these people on this Earth itself. Let the rapist be below 18 years of age, punish him too. At such age, he understands what raping is, how can you call him minor? Was he playing game and incidentally got his penis inserted into the girl? He did it purposely by forcing himself on the Girl, right? So, punish him without considering his age. And please, don’t hang these idiots. There’s no punishment in making someone struggle for 1-2 minutes and finally making them breathe their last. Seriously, cut their hands and penis and tattoo it on their forehead- “I am Satan”. And let the world treat them. Let the girls beat them to death. The same girls whom these idiots found physically weak than them. Let them meet death by the hands of our Goddesses.
In the end, I pay my condolences to victim’s family. I don’t know how will they live a normal life from here. World didn’t end in 2012 but it seriously took away their world. I hope all such victims of rape and their family also come and protest with people sitting at India Gate so that Government get to understand that this protest isn’t closing down any soon. Victim’s soul can never rest in Peace. I hope she is leading a very good life in heaven, at least now. Her plight has become every family’s reason to be sad and to weep. The environment at my home and when I am with my friends has become as if we have lost our house member. I hope this is the last time that we are hearing a news that is as horrific as this. May God Bless Humanity!!!
(A article given by well known author)

Help,I’m Sad Today….!!

27th BLOG POST –>>

     I’m just really not happy. Everytime heart cannot be cheerful and happy. My heart wasn’t in a mood today..It made me sad..I don’t know why I remembered all those pasts which I have already forgotten and want to forget. Today, I felt these words in my life- Kehne ko saath apne ek duniya chalti hai, par chupke is dil mein tanhai palti hai.. normally don’t feel loneliness. In college I’m enjoying my life.. There is so much to do here in this college..I’m enjoying a lot..I utilize my each day here and try to learn something and know something more..I try to add something in my mind.. I remember when this evening, I went to Ratan’s Dhaba , I was feeling terrible. I was feeling lonely and that made me remember the worst person of my life with whom once I shared the most beautiful moments. but ankur asked about then i was not possible to continue these memories.Its not whom I love or any girl …..Dont worry.. I was trying to concentrate on different things.. That was the time i take two glass of tea with Ravi, Niranjan, Abhishek and Ankur. ..just to be in myself and don’t disturb myself with the thoughts which are going to put me again in depression..

            But today , again I felt the same blind environment around me..I wasn’t thinking of that person today but something else was taking off something from me. .I was feeling like something is going away from me..I don’t know what..I was feeling like this is the last day of my good times and from today my bad time has started.. Im very much worried..What made me so sad and puzzle.. I don’t want this type of thoughts to be passing in my life because they slow down my speed of living happily.. 16th & 17^th January has been the first bad day of this year 2012 for me and after that was 1^st December also.. I hope no other day come this way again.. I was remembering what all I thought for the whole day which made my heart sad and slow down but didn’t found the victim of this..            God, my life is hell… I’m tired of being treating like a piece of crap by people who say take care.. I just really don’t know what to do anymore.. Humanity has disappointed me.. My friends has disappointed me.. I’m just sick of being let down. I’m beginning to feel like people make the commitment but then they think I’m not worth it so they quit on me. I just don’t understand why people who say they care feel the need to harm me. I’m tired of being hurt…

            But one thing sometimes that comes in my mind that special one in mind then I’m really hurt. I’m beginning to think it’s beyond repair… It’s really impossible to be positive right now when everyone who you thought supported you is now trying so hard to tear you down…for that special one in my mind these lines come:

“I shall pass my life With support of one memory

OF unfaithful!I shall take you off my heart

I thought your love To be my life

It was my mistake And your unfaithfullness

You were unfaithful But I won’t be sad

Heart had to break,so it did

Why should I lament?

Your deceptive promises Have passed through my heart

My dreams scattered even Befor they could take shape

The tears flowing from my eyes Shall say

That I won’t remain drowning

In the whirlpool of grief…”

Above these lines are the part of a bollywood songs… I need to find another outlet. Another source of life – somewhere that makes you feel like you’re living your life completely and comfortably, the way you want it to be. Nothing can ever be perfect and if something isn’t working out, sometime the answer is to move onto something else and find a different source to focus your energy on.

            No tension..I’m going to sleep just after this blog and have decided not to wake even a single second after posting up this blog..Will wake up tomorrow with a fresh mind and will work accordingly as planned.. This is the first time in 3.5 years that Im not feeling to study while the exams are going on..I don’t know why Im taking this exam so innocuously even when I know that this is an important exam..God give me brain…

Chor Aaye Hum Wo Galiya Wo Lamhe

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                   Milke bichadna dastoor hai zindagi ka, Ek yahi kissa mashahoor hai zindagi ka,

                   Beetey huay pal kabhi laut kar nhi aate, Yahi sabsa bada kasoor hai zindagi ka.

  Now I have only few days left in college. I feel so delight but little bit sad to say goodbye to all of my friends here.  I don’t want to think about the fact that I will no longer be a college student. My life in college was so adventurous. So many things happened and I learned a lot from the college. Now I’m ready to fly. I’m ready to work and so excited to 07.01.2013 is my last day in college.

We shared our every feeling with one another in last four years. College presented me with a lot of good memories and off course a few bad ones. The one class tours,  the birthday celebrations, the movies with friends, getting fired by our teachers, running around taking print-outs for our lab records, copying  assignments just five minutes before submission, those wedding trips, sending SMS and missed calls during class, learning together during the series exams, the heated debates on each and every small thing, oh god! I’m going to badly miss these happy days! 😦 And one girl whom I love very much, I will miss her every moment. Some time we cried together, some time went on night outs, some time bunked classes together. Borrowed money from friends and never returned them. I’m just glad that my good memories heavily outweigh the bad one. I remember those last night studies for exams. We lived the most precious moments of our life in this campus.

I know that we all can never be together in future. So I am here today to share few things with all you.

We all made a lot of friends here. Few were close enough, few were good, and few were always there for us whenever we needed them. A far distance from my home when I asked for a brother you all held my hand. When I cried for parents you all gave me love and whenever I needed motivation you all showed me the ways. How fast these four years vanish with fun, love, study, joy and sorrow. It really surprises me. The campus, its beauty, our teachers, deans, chancellors and most expensive thing you all friends, you all are unforgettable to me. The thousands cell phone videos we made and the crazy pictures we took. Those days were amazing….!!!!

There were very few classmates that I had. I would like to name them for the part they played in my college life……, thanks for making me realize that there’s still time (for me) to get into any relationship after those that happened between us. 🙂 Niranajn Kumar, Ankur Raina, Abhishek Mehra, Ravi Sevta, Vivek Kumar, Jitender Gaur, Rahul and Preety  for playing respective role in my College Life. Niranjan, Vivek and Ankur for helping me to expand my patience level. Without these friends, I can’t imagine the 7th semester(last) to be funny and the way I wanted it to be. And now coming to the best buddies I had in the college- Niranjan-Only this guy had the potential to make me laugh whenever I was out of funny mood. Pranjali-It’s very difficult for boys to handle the girl who is full of excitement and arguments, but it was very funny to deal with this part of yours. 🙂 And keep smiling as your smile decorate people around you. Sometimes it’s hard to speak about the person who has been the closest to you. I am facing the same currently. I can only say that God should give a Supportive Friend to everyone. That’s all

I would like to thank you all for the precious contribution in my life.

In future we do not know that where we will be. So the most important thing which I would like to tell you that today is the day to live your life up to the fullest. We do not know that in future this day will come again or not. So do one thing if you have fight with someone go tell sorry, if any friend is sulked on you go hug him right now, love someone go tell them. This day will never come again in life.

In college time passes very beautifully but the leaving time does not remain beautiful in this sense that it touch your heart that you are leaving good friends and institution …….. In fact this in not mention able in the words. At last wishing good luck to all of you for your future I want to tell you that I love you a lot friends.

ITNA MAIN CHAHOON KOI KISI KO NA CHAAHE

25th BLOG POST –>>

Strange but very true saying love stararts when you dont need it and love ends when you most need it. Love is like that the aim of love life is one place but the path to life is another. The days that were beautiful started fading up. The aroma that used to attract me, still attracted but when I moved towards it, it used to disappear. The dreams that trapped me in its beauty and glare stopped celebrating itself in my slumber moments because of love. The world started changing. The island that once showed me the horizons of endless water showed me a barren land which was still to taste a drop of water. The tree that used to give me mangoes of all sizes and shapes begun showing what empty branches are like. The moment she came in my life, I realized that I have got my life with positive thoughts. The rationality and diplomacy that the thoughts had started changing for her. The positivism that I had started turning into orbits of hatred where she was the center point. The life that had a life of itself started turning out to be lifeless. It was hard to identify myself. The boy who showered love wasn’t getting a chance to meet his love for a moment. Yes, at this stage the love was at its climax. All the white started moving towards black, escaping the grayish shade.

It was first day when I fell in love at first sight. It was after some months and the love wasn’t getting any better than any of the yesterdays. It started turning out to be the weakest asset that I ever possessed. But still a thought of getting a relationship failed was in my head. I asked her what was her reason to not continue the love that was fulfilling almost every desire of each other. But she had a answer. A private problem is that cannot be shared. But I hope you get a better one than me”. For once, my mind did say,”Oh Yeah, bitch, every girl in this world is better than you. And to be truthful, even a bitch is better bitch than you.” But the love dominated the situation, thought process, anger, frustration and even exasperation. The orgasm that one sees in the movies are just a great creativity of the makers. The reality tells what orgasm is. It is nothing except few seconds of fun that a person gets and then forget the emotional connect one had with the person but here was no much more like that.

Those days were some days, nobody understood my true love for her everyone said hey it is teenage crush you will laugh when you remember these days and you will get over it ,but i didn’t care what people had to say about my true love, i loved her very much but unfortunately luck wasn’t on my side and lost her but honestly i still can’t get love…….Pyaar kya hai Dard kya hai Deewane samajhte hain Ishq mein jalne ka matlab Aashiq hi samajhte hain Only crazy can understand What is love and pain Only lovers can understand What it is to suffer in love Main tadapta rahoon Tujhe kuchh na kahoon Bin kahe bhi magar Main to reh na sakoon I keep squirming But do not tell you But I can not remain Without telling you…

Realy name of love is God and it’s written in the bible God is love because he so love the world that he gave his begotten son that who so ever believe in him shall parish will receive d eternal life. God bless all lovers… .under Process. Please visit later

MERRY CHRISTMAS to ALL……!!

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Finally its the last week of this year and decade. A wonderful year of 2012 is coming to an end which showed us so many things (latest being Sachin Tendulkar’s bye 😉 ). The last week of every year has one charismatic festival which I don’t think you would have found difficult in figuring out. Merry Christmas to all of you. Christmas is a beautiful festival celebrated by Christians and all the followers of Jesus Christ. Christmas signifies the birth of Jesus Christ. Now a days Christmas is not only confined to Christians but by other religious and pious people too. I’m a Hindu and I am as enthusiastic as Christians for this festival. Jesus Christ is not only associated with Christians as the English Calendar which is followed globally is based on his birth. The Hindu Calendar and Islamic Calendar are followed by their followers itself but the Christian Calendar is followed by each and everyone so the importance of Jesus Christ and Christmas is very close to each and everyone in the world.

      Christmas greetings to all … peace and happiness for this festival of prayer and well being, for goodness and friendship to prevail, and for the greater good of humanity to find a warm home in each one of us …It’s been a roller coaster of a year but at last Christmas is here and a New Year is in sight.
       I would like to wish my family and friends a very Merry Christmas and extend a big thank you to everyone for their continued support and help during 2012
      May the Stars and Sunshine of Christmas bring peace and love in your life. The happiness and sacredness that the Lord Jesus wanted everyone to possess should be a matter of fact and not fiction/myth. Let the question of God existing or not remain aside but on the mark of Year’s last festival, trust in the God and the plans that he makes for us. Every Christmas, we pray God to send Santa Claus to our homes with the gift that we are waiting/dying for. As a child, all of us demanded something from our parents continuously. But they never used to give us in closet as they didn’t want us to become adamant and someone not valuing things. Finally, before the arrival of Christmas, they used to ask us to write what we wanted on a chit of paper so that they can give it to Santa Claus. We used to write it. On the night of 24th, when we used to get ready for sleep, parents used to ask us to pray God and sleep so that, by the morning, when we would be waking up, we’ll find gifts under our pillow. Many of us after praying never used to sleep for next 2-3 hours in an expectation of seeing how Santa Claus comes in the dress and places the gift. But we failed because of the amount of slumber we loved then. 🙂 Now, we prefer Facebook/Twitter over slumber.
         Finally, in the morning, when we used to wake up, we used to find the toy that we asked for either under our pillow or on our bedside with few chocolates. Then, our parents used to make us bathe and pray God to thank him for sending Santa Claus with the gift. They never told us that they themselves are Santa for us who purchase the gift and never tell us that they are doing this favour ove us and not Santa. 🙂 And, after that we visit our Christian friends to meet them on the occasion and used to discuss as to what they wrote on their piece of paper/message/sms etc for thwir friends and how they got their favorite toy. Some of us even carried our new toy to showcase it in front of our friends and boast about it. :-).But I become so sad now in college our friends not celebrating this festival much more. They wish to each other not enjouying much…:( 😦 This is how I remember Christmas every year. And with the amount of love I have for this festival, I don’t think that I will ever stop celebrating or prioritizing it. I love this festival to the core. Actually, I, since my childhood, have not been into celebration of festivals but I always respected every festival that came in my way. And I never knew what religion and caste were until my 10th std. This helped me a lot in developing up as a human I am.

A Merry Christmas to all of you. Do celebrate the day and try to make it sure that you do something different from every usual day.